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a simple run of chords;

word the unravelling of our minds

10/18/08 09:36 pm - Please Girl Act Right

Could you blame me? Iago; 'Touch me not so near.' The only damn line I remember from shakespeare's othello applies to myself and not exams, Alevels 1, yt 0. I haven't drawn doodled in years. (Alevels 2, yt 0, this is not part of schedule you know) Could you blame me? I was going to disappear, and this gave me my breath back. Miss wood, mrs wood, and little miss wood are all afraid of what's before them.(they are wood for a reason, bark for hearts.) Could you blame me?







10/17/08 01:40 am - Window glass

No day is a salad day. I wish I had dreams you can comprehend better but the underlying reasons for its surreal quality is unknown to myself even..I was in a shophouse perhaps one abandoned, one can hardly not acknowledge its state of disrepair, my family was waiting at the car, outside. I was in the washroom, of this shophouse, to wear my contact lenses. I was also walking around topless and random strangers looked in through windows and all I had was a small pathetic towel which I put to good use(of course) The strangers were larger than life, with half their faces filling up each window glass. Peering, half squinting, into a dollhouse? and I shan't bother to decipher what that means. And then, I was facing my own reflection, there were grime spots on the glass. Fished my lens case from my pocket, and then my left lens out of the case. My left lens unfurled, it unfurled into this enormity of a butterfly resembling an intricate 3D model of satin ribbons. And without flinching a bit I held the butterfly between my forefinger and thumb, and tried to fit it into my eye. The thought: 'It is possible, but I've forgotten how.' was ringing in my head.
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(The right lens was normal-sized, and lens-like.)

And all was actually wholly forgotten! Do you hate forgetting dreams like I do? I was at the sink wearing my contact lenses this thursday afternoon when it all came back. It seemed like something special. Butterfly tamed by two fingers, to be forcibly fit into my left eye. If I could paint, I'd paint it. :)

10/12/08 02:24 pm - A little birdy told me you you left me so you 'could fuck around'

Lonely Lessons. Could possibly translate into deriving strength stemming, not, from others. On to a briiighter note, As is still a huge fuck my head still spins when I get up onto my feet too quickly I need to devote more time 2 prepn 4 exmz, need to stop spending on whatever my bottomlesspitofastomach fancies. Basically anything edible. Today marks a rather postponed end to my 2-day break, a graduation gift to myself.....I am not so Gung ho about math, but was I ever

10/6/08 09:58 pm - it's october, it's not autumn

Do or die or die in battle! A must-have-mindset for A levels. I travelled on 4 buses today, 1 of which I boarded without thinking. Funny how it brought me to where I needed to be. Perhaps with a mind incapable of thought, living becomes a viable option. (Another path clears of that tangle of poison ivy) I need to: lock up all mental ramblings in a memory drawer/vanquish every wisp of a thought permanently. The former, I think? My sentimentality opposes, violently, to any form of...disposal. Sometimes I frighten even myself with all that silence in me.

9/29/08 01:12 am - Going doesn't mean gone

I'm a leopard. Catwoman with one life, many chances. I'm a pigeon with salt puddle burdens, I can't fly. Bound to those who wished I stayed but, I'm going to places. Maps will fail to tell you where.

9/11/08 11:53 pm - Engaged to smile

Since I haven't felt this way in ages, why have the firing of neurons sent these evil, evil transmissions to where it is (still) vulnerable (?) Our chapter has dwindled to the occasional sentence, we can hardly bother ourselves with the chore of Remembering, anymore! The ink in the pen has dried we lost the pen actually we just don't wish to pick up the damned pen, why write something encompassing little truth, and was going to be forgotten anyway, right? spell h-u-r-t, spell d-o-n-e, I wish words were letters landing together by chance. Don't come back, I wouldn't know what to do with you.

8/26/08 08:20 pm - Toooosh

   Ammentalbegentle     says:
cant it
   Ammentalbegentle     says:
stick out and 'flow' into your BEHIND-PALM
   Ammentalbegentle     says:
what is it called .HAHAHAHA you know your palm, the flip side of it
underwhelmed says:
HAHAHAHAHA

I remember being afraid of Gerard growing too frail by the time I decide to have you inked into my skin too, ha-ha-ha I may still murmur to and stroke the sparrows to keep them alive. But every digit has to be scratched out, of course. I don't wish you well, & when songs play the artist in my head draws every face but yours. It is rather, unsettling. (truth is, it strikes me now how wrong it was, insisting you assume the identity of My True Love.) Prelims upset me, yet Indifference > Upset. ughrhfh. The next time, this will be about someone else.

8/21/08 08:02 pm - So easily

Guess who watched the Espys today, guess who teared when the video of Black Powers was played? omffff whadda sap.. We are glad about danger being surgically removed from the streets. (Have you heard, about its recent relocation? It lurks in our hearts instead.) And I <3 Black Powrrr cuss no one deserves oppression of that degree. Here's a googled photograph of two black-gloved heroes, omg I'm trying to stifle desires of purchasing my own pair haaha:


8/20/08 10:36 pm - Cry

Cry

8/17/08 03:37 pm - Lucky we're in love, in every way




My eyelids are apart, my lips are, we are




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